I my case I think H started the affair awhile ago, don't know when...but he was withdraw many times. When I asked what was wrong, he would say that he was tired, that he was dealing with a lot at work.
I can't say we were unhappy but I can't say we were happy either. Lots of stress with my kid being very suicidal. I became very stressed out and many times I was withdraw myself. I was drained and he took much of my depression as a personal issue.
One thing he keep saying is that I didn't love him for a long time and now I am just having feelings of loss, that soon enough I will be happier because he is not in my life. H actually told my whole family this.
Lately I am avoiding him at all costs, I don't even feel like talking to him on the phone. And yesterday, when he said that he wants to make copies of all the tax returns and financial papers I felt again this pain in my stomach. It means he is not thinking we can turn around and work on our M. I fear he had a good time w/OW and will serve me D papers very soon.
I need to detach, but it's been hard. I look like detaching but I can't lie to myself. I think about him every second of the day.
I want to take some time this weekend and think about my goals, they are all over the place. I have no direction, no plan of action right now, and this is not good. I just have fear and I am paralyzed by it.
Hey Toots and Calibri what are your goals? Did you set any and could accomplish any yet?
