Thanks Toots, I think it is hard to just acknowledge that it is all happening right now. Folks here are right... one day you feel you can take the world and the other you feel like garbage. Because of his shouting yesterday, I feel like crap today. Need to go home and start packing, maybe some fun with my kids will be just what I need. I won't change the locks... I am stubborn too. It's good I have good friends here so I can remember why I am here in the first place.
Besides, he thinks I am going to the Mountains for revenge and to punish him, so it could make things much worse with the whole lock issue. Ok, no messing up w/locks.
Toots, even when the odds are not exactly against me, I just feel that he is so done with me. But I am reading again and again Sandy's 37 rules, trying to believe that there is hope.
You know, from 7/26/14 to 10/31/14 we have a R better then when on honeymoon. I actually never had a most beautiful love. He was always very caring, nice, gentle. I still don't understand how H could make love with such passion, love and intensity if he didn't feel anything about me?
Does anyone knows why they do this?
I tough it was guilty at first, but it wouldn't last so long, then I tough was a goodbye, but again he did not leave very fast. Can't get it and I would like to understand.
Probably some vets would say, "it does not matter right now, you need to move forward, do your GALs and keep an eye on the prize" RIGHT??
Thanks ladies, my day is better just because of you!
