I'm lonely and I have sexual needs that I cannot meet with anyone right now. Not only because I know it will put me in a predicament I'm not equipped to deal with at the moment, but also because it's not fair to anyone else. Of course, I know some people feel like they can meet sexual needs with people who are also in it just for sexual needs, but I'm not prone to operating that way.
There's no need to compare myself to anyone and how quickly they can move on and forward; I can go as slow as I need to go and do whatever I'm comfortable with.
In some aspects, I feel like I've got to settle, now. I found a man who I considered my soul mate, my best friend. He doesn't want me. Now I either settle for someone who doesn't hit me in the same ways or wait forever until someone hits me with the same impressive ways that took forever to find the first time.
I'm just bitter about it all. I wish I could be cavalier like BF and just bonk anyone and then shove myself into a new R just because someone makes my pee pee hard.
Blah.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
