Thanks, sandi, for the encouragement. My attitude is one of humility. I know I hurt my W deeply with my put-downs, criticisms, emotional/verbal abuse, etc. It [censored]. At the time I didn't really know I was being so bad because we also had so many good times and my W never shared with me her feelings. I feel like such an idiot, but she did me a favor by leaving so that my eyes could be opened.
Six weeks does seem like forever, but I believe that for my W, she's going to need a long time to heal. It's just very hard for me because I'm letting her call the shots with the kids for now and because my W hasn't said one thing to me since 10/15/14. We are literally having no contact via a mutual restraining order.
Have any of you ever seen marriages like this reconcile, where the W left because the H had been abusive? What a tough pill for me to have swallowed these past weeks--to realize that I was truly abusive to her emotions and her mind--and that I hurt my wife so deeply, the one woman who gave me her heart to protect. How I wish she could see the changes happening in my life. Real changes!
It's been hard because I have all these memories of happy times flooding into my mind all day long. Truly happy memories, and there have been a lot. Could my wife really not remember these and could she only be nursing her negative feelings right now? I hope she remembers the good times.
I need a lot of help and support during this holiday season. :|
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Me: 29 W: 29 S: 7 S: 4 M: 8 BD 10/15/14 (Order of Protection) D filed 10/14 Letting God change my life. Doing the hard work to be the H my W always needed and to be the father my children deserve.
