Please, accept that there will be crappy days. You've had a big loss in your life. Don't castigate yourself for having feelings.

Better days will come. smile

Why didn't you ask H to pick up the kids from school? That would seem appropriate even if you had been Dd for years.

Hope the sun is shining where you are like it is here.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss