Are you missing the feeling of having a partner by your side to support you? Or is it that H isn't around as a family with the Thanksgiving holiday looming just around the corner?
It's the partner thing. I really want someone who will stand by me. But the thing I'm struggling with is that I don't know that H was that person anyway. I'm not sure if the sense of loss is about H himself, or the fact that now that I know how to ask for what I need (a recently learned skill), there's no one to ask. In any case, I'm getting no support from him, or any other man, and that blows, because I want it so much.
Last night would have been a good night if I didn't feel so crappy. S19 stepped up by picking up his sister from school and doing some grocery shopping. All three of them, plus D16's bf, pitched in to make dinner. My kids are gold. But they aren't my partner.
