Thanks, uR. So steadfast and claming, you are. Right, no knee jerk reactions. OK, I've got to get a grip.

He is just so close. It is hard. I can just feel his presence next door. See his truck right through my front window.

STAY FOCUSED! I knew I would need to reiterate that to myself; hence, the thread name. And I called it!

I need to keep my eyes and attention on my kids. This is NOT about me right now. Not at all.

I don't think I can handle the baby thing. Honestly. I just don't. Maybe I am raw right now.

I do miss him. When I seem him, it just seems right. He just seems so much like his old self. But more sincere than I've seen... maybe ever?!

The truth is, I don't know what he wants, and I'm sure he doesn't know either.

Her and the baby. It is a lot to handle. For him, too, but added with the rejection and betrayal- and that's the result of it.

OK, back to praying. I need some guidance.

Sit quietly, right??

It's just all so sudden.