Busting this Divorce - Standing Firm

[HPoirot]

HP,

There's been a flurry of emails/texts back and forth today. I really think you do need to step back a bit and catch a breath. You can respond to W sometime later...say tomorrow.

You need to take care of yourself. You've been battered emotionally. Your energy levels are low today for they've been sapped by this back and forth...aren't they?

Is this how you feel?

I feel worse than that. Beyond tired.

She's not done though. She's here. We had a really nice conversation about her day before she wrote her last email. Then she went upstairs without a word and wrote another.

Some of it...

HP..regardless of the past mistakes we have both made..you still remained true to us. I haven't. I fell out of love with you a very long time ago. Instead of telling you the truth, instead of fighting. . I remained and became increasingly resentful of our lives...our lack of real passion, of shared interests...of a real and deep connection to building a family in a home of our own...our lack of any sustainable familial relationships and friendships..our lack of a spiritual life...

But despite this...we were able to be kind to each other. .have some very good times..give our boy a great life.

I am grateful to you for always working so hard for us. I wish things could be different. I am terribly sad about all of this.

In this very moment....I want you to know that you are one of the best people I have ever known. With all my heart I only want the best for you. I wish things were different.

I wish I could handle this better. I still have to interact with her tonight. So I'm not done. I'm seeing I'm never done.

I have to keep going. Not sure what to say.