Busting this Divorce - Standing Firm

[HPoirot]

If you had the power to see into the future, and see that the M does survive, would it help you get through this pain? I think it would.

Yes. Absolutely. If I know my M would survive then none of this would be a problem. It could even be a pleasure. Wait... I could just act as if everything will work out no matter what. I could work to maintain my faith in that. The framing I talked about before. It's hard to remember in the thick of fear. But I'm getting better with fear now. I'm getting better...

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New text from W just now... "I feel so bad about this."

I'm not responding. I don't think there's anything useful I could say.