Newcomer Living in Hell 2

[bravo61]

Bug,
She said I was NOT being erased from their lives. Simple typo.

Simply put, the comment about treating her horribly for years is kinda muddy. Was I unkind during fights at times, yes. The point was that she felt that way and I refuse to minimize her feelings in that regard even if they may not be 100% factual. That is the way I took on more of my share of the blame. If that makes any sense.

She is a caring parent it just seems different now and not only to me. My S has made many comments about it & I reassure him how much she loves him.

The only time D comes up is when she brings it up. Outside of the reaction to the pictures and the text the other day, I haven't said anything about not wanting a divorce in a couple of months.

I make every interaction w/W pleasant and upbeat as I can. The kids and I have a great time together. Sure we go do the "fun stuff" but also the mundane like homework and grocery shopping.

This is all so hard, because I was so excited about a new start with my family. I don't want to believe that this is the end but it is for now. It's lime I was the one in a "fog".

Buts it's my choice and responsibility to be the man I want to be. The man I am is all the things that she wanted. Even though she says she doesn't now, that may change later. But regardless that man can be a blessing to his kids and others in his life.

Most T-giving one or both of us had to work. If I didn't, I would cook for the fam or we'd go to the in-laws.

Lord, please heal my family and send a Miracle to bring us back together whole.