Wife has left and filed for divorce

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I guess I'm just not sure what to do right now. It's been almost six weeks since my wife and I have spoken and since she moved out with the boys and filed the Order of Protection.

Since then, I've taken very long and painful looks at my past behavior and have implemented changes while also asking God into my heart to improve me from within, which I've never done.

I have joined a weekly abuse program, have surrounded myself with Godly men, am getting treatment for my OCD (this was something that really bothered my wife), and am simply not going back to the mean, critical, emotionally abusive man I used to be. I am happy with the nice, peaceful, calm guy I am now, but just hope my W can see it.

It's been six weeks and in this time my W hasn't talked to me at all. However, her MIL has said things like they've noticed and are impressed with my pleasant attitude, my W still loves me, my W wanted to stay by my side if my problems were just from my OCD, my FIL said there's a 50/50 chance of us getting back together, etc. I hear positive things from my W's parents, and yet my W keeps moving forward with the D.

For example, recently I received my Interrogatories and Requests for Production, which means I've got a lot of questions to answer about my past indiscretions and my finances and documents to furnish supporting such answers. It's a lot of work and it feels so defeating when at other times my W's family seems to say positive things about my W and how she feels about me.

So I'm just not sure what to do and it's easy to lose hope. Also, my two boys say they want us back together and that breaks my heart.