Dealing with the kids non stop is too much to bear. I can't even imagine having 3.
Go easy on yourself. You are only 1 person. Kids are gonna fight and be bratty and are gonna make you nuts. That would be the same if you and your stbx were still together.
I too want a no strings attached relationship. I'm too scared to share for real with anyone.
You are not alone.
We think your great:)
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13