Got an email from H today. Heart pounding as I opened it as I never am sure what I am about to find.

Anyway, it was ok. S17 had contacted him about the course and he just wanted to tell me that he does not think its a good idea and feels S should come to UK to see what there offers.

He also wanted to discuss S x2 birthdays next yr as I wont be here and they are big ones.

I have replied, kept it to the point - said I was proud of S17 for getting off his butt and making something happen for himself and that if things don't work out then coming to me is still an option for him. (I did not mention I am thinking of coming back to NZ)

I signed off by saying it was nice to hear from him and hope all is good in his world.

Trying to keep expectations at zero - but first contact in a month - feeling a little unsettled by it ... he still has that affect on me, even with a boring email !