Newcomer Living in Hell 2

[bravo61]

just got back from taking the kids back to W apt after church. i gave her pictures from Santa and soccer pics. she gave me the divorce settlement to sign and send to her lawyer. nice trade huh. noticed that she had taken down a picture of her and i from one of our first trips as a married couple. i didn't say anything but she noticed me notice it. she said, i'm erasing you from their lives. and you're such a good person. i didn't lose it or cry. of course i wanted to say if i'm a good person what does that make you for leaving me.

let's be honest divorce means that you are willing to give up days with your own children of you're own accord. that's such BS! yeah looking at that i see how sorry for myself i'm feeling, i just hate this and i'm tired of the pain. she wants me to go to thanksgiving with them. she gave me big hug when i left.

i only get the kids for one night this week because her mom is in town. i wonder how long it will take after the divorce for her to realize that i can't be her default blame for everything and happiness isn't garunteed with divorce.