Thank you, Sandi. I do see the ability to actually talk without her being angry or completely cold to be a good thing. Baby steps, right?
I just have my moments (many, many moments) when I truly long for her company. I'm not exaggerating when I say that since we were together, I was always happy to be in the same room with her no matter what we were doing. She really was (is?) the love of my life and my best friend.
I've read the other sitches you mentioned, Sandi. They have, indeed, told me plainly that patience and single minded dedication may just save the day when all else fails. I always had the latter and I am learning the former.
I did see her for a moment when I dropped my son off today. She asked if I wanted to go to thanksgiving with her family. I'm not sure if she wants me there of if she's feeling sorry for me. I already signed up to volunteer at a shelter serving Thanksgiving dinner, so I am otherwise occupied. Even if I wasn't, I don't know that going would have been the right thing to do. More so if it was her pity that caused her to ask.
Its going to suck though. This will be the first Thanksgiving without my family since we got married. And my first, ever in my life, that I don't really have a family to share it with. At least I'll be making my time useful to others.
