still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

I should know this. I feel that I can easily turn this into us being best friends again - she would go along with this. I think it is what she wants.

If I held her hand she would go along.
If I kissed her, she would go along - it would stop there, but she has looked for small affection from me.
If I talked to her about anything but us, she would go along.

I don't want to only be this best friend & room mate. I fear the friend zone.

There will be nothing to validate if I do not initiate something. She would only talk about work. But sprinkle in normal family plans (which drives me a little crazy because it is just ignoring the elephant).