You are right, Young At Heart. I recently spoke with her and she still wanted me to help her pay for the phone bill. She insisted so much that I agreed to help her only for this month. To this day, she hasn't paid her part and now my phone is going to be disconnected (we are sharing a line under my name).
But anyways, that day I spoke with her and she brought up the same old topic again. She said that I abandoned her, that I preferred my family over her, etc etc. Then she got very agitated, and hung up the phone on me. I didn't call her back, I didnt text her. 5 minutes later she texted me "I dont want to argue." Then she called to apologize:
W: "I am sorry for hanging up the phone on you...I dont want to argue."
Me: "ok, I dont like arguing either. I will help you for this month."
W: "Thank you!"
Me: "Enjoy your TV show" W: "Ok thank you. Have a restful night" Me: "You too. God bless you."
I must admit that this situation didn't really hurt me at all. This happened before and I used to get very emotional. My heart is either stronger or dried up. I still have love for her, but my constant attempts to save the relationship failed greatly, which caused me to step back and do a 180. I am not an expert but I try not to let her get to me.
Since the past 5 months I have been going to the gym, cooking healthy food and dressing up better. I was very skinny and now I reached a healthy weight (mostly muscle). I moved out from my old apartment (it was too expensive for just a 1/1) into a cheaper one on a different location. I feel more at peace, almost no stress at all, more focused and happy than when we were together. I feel like Im myself again. I wasn't 100% happy with her (maybe 80%), but I wanted our relationship to reach that "happy level". I was willing to work hard at it. I will keep praying and doing my thing. No more games. No more the same'ol thing!
