I thought everything was okay...

[HPoirot]

Hey MCS. I'm sorry your here and I know the temptation to parse everything your W said since BD looking for a reason or something to hang on to. Some reassurance. Some flaw in OM or some sign W is failing with OM. I still do let my mind wander around those thoughts now.

I does not help you.

Of course stay engaged with her and listen. Don't listen too long. Don't focus on OM or try to tell or understand that story. This is coming from me who did likely worse than anyone here on OM thinking. It hurts too much and messes up your PMA and progress. Your only route and hope is your own self improvement and happiness. Try to write more about your successes in GAL or detaching or dealing with spew or W mood swings. Focus on what you can do today to be better you now. The past choices you and your W made are past. Put them out of your mind. Let's get better doing that together.