a young marriage in trouble

[lnlyshp]

Rough couple of days. Having trouble sleeping through the night. Got too drunk last night. I'm not a big drinker, but for some reason I thought it would help. It did not. I feel miserable this morning (emotionally, not physically). I'm going to pick up my son today. With the holidays coming up, she asked if it was okay if she took him out of town to see her sister for a few days. I've never been away from him for more than a day. It is going to be tough to get through and I will miss him a great deal.

Had a meeting with her yesterday during which she told me in no uncertain terms which way she is leaning (towards a divorce, although she did not say the word). She said that if I asked her right now, I would not like the answer. I encouraged her to keep thinking on things. The talk was supposed to be about how things should work and how we should behave towards each other during this time. She does not want to talk about our relationship now, but it seems clear to me that she has already made up her mind. How do you stay optimistic in dark times like these? I feel like giving up hope.