Something just hit me a few days ago driving home.
XH acted and believed all things would remain the same with us except 3 things.
1. He wasn't going to live in this house anymore.
2. He wasn't going to have sex with me anymore.
3. He wasn't going to give me any more money than what was legally ordered by the court.
Other than that everything was going to stay the same!!! He was going to come and go as he pleased with the kids, come and go inside this house as he pleased, talk to me when he pleased, even visit me in person as he pleased. The divorce negotiations were going to be as He wanted them and I was going to be just fine with it all! It was no big deal that he was leaving me for the OW that he'd been having an affair with for years, I mean why not?
I don't know. I really don't know if this is MLC or just narcissism, I mean a true narcissist Im dealing with. Quite frankly I think it's the later, because his thought process and sense of entitlement over things is just over the top to me. A perfect example is basically the knowing the fact that Im hurt over this, but too bad. He's just going to do what he wants to do and Im just going to have to live with it as well as his kids. He treated it as if it were like telling a 2 year old they couldn't have candy before dinner or something!
Makes me wonder if all the times he does actually appear to have a conscious, if he's just acting.
And I wonder why I have trust issues? My God every thing that any normal human being would have a level of trust with their spouse has been broken by him. He lied on so many different levels with me.
