3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

I have been trying to read books online on the couch. That helps for sure. And the yoga sounds exactly like what I need! Thank you for the suggestions!!

As for H, he is an alcoholic, but he manages it pretty well. He only drinks about 1-2 weekends a month. He's never been violent with me and I don't fear that he will. He has always been an advocate for the safety of women.
He hasn't had a drink in almost 2 weeks which is good. He's trying to connect with me again with affection and intimacy. I have allowed him some but only because I'm craving and wanting it. It's on my terms. He's still sleeping on the couch.
I'm trying to be patient with myself and allow time to pass and not always be so eager for action. I know he's confused and needs time to figure his crap out. Meanwhile I had coffee with one of my best girlfriends tonight. We did talk about my situation but we also had fun and talked about a bunch of other things that were actually uplifting. A good night for sure.

Thanks again for your advice!!