25yearsmlc...thank you for your input...it really is hard and I am heartbroken hence the questions...
He did tell me to move on and that is painful. And I struggle with that we are not worth the effort...even more so if the alcohol is what he is choosing first.
There is nothing left to ponder...I moved out. The kids and I are safe...no more of H coming home drunk or late or not at all.
It is a chaos free house...quiet and peaceful. I filed for D ...he should have received his papers today.
I know it is the right thing to do and every day it gets a little easier. He fooled us all. I was betrayed twice.
