Thank you for that. Hope is very powerful and although I do waiver, I also am an optimist. I can take plenty of fault in my marriage, and have all the right excuses for how it happened, but - That being said, I have neglected my H for so long that he has definitely protected himself by making sure he sees me as a family member...who he does love, but... you guessed it... is not in love with. I have tried to understand what he needs and offer that to him, but I don't get any positive responses when I initiate ANYTHING. I only get rejected... just like all the years of unintentional rejection he received from me. (I was sexually abused as a kid... yadayadayada) I am a bit insecure about my body, and I totally relate to your thought about your wife thinking your body was repulsive, but I honestly think I am prettier than he thinks I am.... funny, because it used to be the opposite! He has told me that he thinks he convinced himself that he didn't really find me attractive. He thinks that he is bad because he wants to have sex with other women, and that I deserve more than he can give me.
Sorry for the ramble, but I don't get this out much! LOL.
