still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

I responded later in the day.
"I am not ignoring you - I just don't know exactly how to respond to this.
I disagree with this though"

I feel like I really need to respond to these messages, but don't really know what to say. In the past, these conversations have not been productive, just circled back around to OM and then my inability to move on (which in my mind is just sweeping things under the rug).

I know that e-mails are impersonal, but we do seem to get through to each other better that way right now. It does remove the emotion.

I want to ask her what she is looking for so I can determine if it is what I want too.

She knows I have doubt and issues that I haven't had before - I would like to know if she is willing to help me with those, but don't want to pressure her. I'm getting confused again.