D7 is having trouble behavior-wise and I got a call right as my shift started at work from the principal. Great. My kid is always getting in trouble, it has ALWAYS been this way. I just never know how to get her back on track, it's like i have to let her right herself... which is hard when she's SEVEN!
Ugh, so dealing with that.
On my break I called H just to talk about D a bit. He offered to pick her up from school tonight and keep her tonight (he has her this weekend, too). I know he was reaching out and letting me know he'd heard me when I said I was at my wits end with D. He wants to give me a break. The truth is, I don't need a break from her, I need a break from people who can't handle her but his gesture was kind and I took him up on it. He left work immediately to pick her up.
I thought about that part for a bit. He left work immediately to go pick her up.
Pre BD he would have never left work early to pick D up from school for ANY reason. NEVER. It's nice to have this support from him regarding her.
At the end of my shift I received a text from him saying,
H: I'm thinking about sushi with D tonight. You're welcome to join us.
Wha?! He hasn't invited me out since BD.
I tried not to read into it. It's a delicious meal and I get to hug D after her rough day at school.
I respond:
Me: I'd love to! Thank you! What time?
(in retrospect, perhaps exclamation points evoke too much excitement. subtlety isn't my strong suit)
When I arrived I got a running smiling hug from D and a nice "Hello, glad you could make it" from H.
The table was a 4 top and I sat down next to D. H said, "Oh you're not going to sit here? ok." and pointed to the seat next to him with the place setting and moved it over to where I was sitting.
Only then did I realize there was no place setting where I chose to sit. Usually H either sits alone on one side of the table or next to D. It was strange and very out of character (even pre BD) for him to expect me to sit next to him.
Oh well. It means nothing.
We ate. We nagged D to eat her dinner. We talked about why she got in trouble today, and yesterday... and everyday. We talked about consequences of actions, trust, etc. I'm 99% sure it didn't sink in with her. I think I need to look into testing. Ugh.
Anyway, at the end of the meal, I thanked H for dinner and he said, "No problem, I'm glad you could make it."
That was nice, huh?
Anyway, that's about it. I'm really trying not to find hope in any of that and to just keep on keeping on. Way too much to focus on right now. After all, my marriage is in a box up on a high shelf as suggested by uR. I'm not ready to take it down yet.
