As far as what preceded her change in personality, I never thought about it before now. But now that you mention it, our youngest S was born almost exactly 24 months before D-day #1. He was an unplanned pregnancy - and not our first unplanned pregnancy - and my wife was very upset each and every time. I would always shrug off her complaints, saying that it takes two to tango and that we were both responsible for the pregnancies. We BOTH got lost in the heat of the moment. She does not like being pregnant and does not like the infant stage. I also guilted her into breast-feeding even though she always hated breast feeding. I discouraged her from using birth control for religious reasons. I always wanted more children that she did. I think to a certain degree she felt like a baby-making machine and (appropriately) blamed me for it. Eventually she had an IUD placed. I also did not let our children watch television, further increasing her childcare duties. I have no doubt that this was a difficult time in her life. May I speculate that she felt completely out of control? I was not home a lot during those years either, due to my job. Man, I feel like the worst H in the world.
This is a completely novel insight for me. I never thought about it until just now. Perhaps S5 was the straw that broke the camels back. I think I am starting to see my role in this. what's next? What do I do with this insight/information? Someone, please help me along.
