Generally speaking, I haven't been feeling a lot of anger towards STBX in the past month, but I guess he can still get to me.
He had an appt with his atty yesterday to review what he and I have already agreed to. I was a little nervous that he would come back with a whole list of things that the atty didn't like, and I confess to having checked my email pretty compulsively all last evening.
When I got up this morning - he had sent me a note explaining a few things the atty needs, but there weren't any unpleasant surprises. Then he ended the email with "There's probably more, but I'm really tired right now". His "being tired" has been a constant since he became a cop and started shift work. In the emails he has sent me since BD - at least half of them reference being tired. I am sympathetic, truly, and am well aware that I could never handle working a graveyard shift. I've always been supportive of this, constantly shushing kids because Daddy's sleeping and finding activities for us to do outside of the house so that he could sleep in peace. I've been fine with it when he missed family events because he was tired, etc. etc.
Now that I know he somehow found the energy to conduct multiple affairs, despite all the fatigue - I guess it grates on me to continue to hear about how tired he is.
