If I had any insight I'd offer it in a second. But I dont. All I have is a gigantic hug, and a high five for you for being SO STRONG. I hope that in all the chaos of emotion you are feeling pride, because you stood by your values.
Adding you to my lengthy prayer list.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15