Just finished parent-teacher conferences at work. A long, intense day.
Last year, H was at my home watching D. I came home and broke down crying. It was the worst feeling to come home after this long day and not have a partner to be there for me.
This year? Well, the day was technically just as long, but I didn't come home feeling totally exhausted and spent. Our nanny was babysitting. I feel at ease and relaxed. Don't really miss him tonight. Don't need to collapse in a puddle.
Might even bake off some of my leftover cookie dough.
Just finished parent-teacher conferences at work. A long, intense day.
Last year, H was at my home watching D. I came home and broke down crying. It was the worst feeling to come home after this long day and not have a partner to be there for me.
This year? Well, the day was technically just as long, but I didn't come home feeling totally exhausted and spent. Our nanny was babysitting. I feel at ease and relaxed. Don't really miss him tonight. Don't need to collapse in a puddle.
Might even bake off some of my leftover cookie dough.
That's powerful. Good for you.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
Yep. There's more that I won't go into now. I'm pretty powerful and capable and self sufficient. And he is a lot less helpful than he likes to think he is.
Spent time with my parents last night. Holy cow they are not easy or pleasant to be around. And both highly anxious which makes it even harder for me to control my own. And they are also both very very negative people. I am fighting that trait in myself, too. So, I guess it is a good thing to see it in my parents so that I am more mindful of it in myself. And especially in how I respond to my D. I need to spend more time with more positive influences.
