Well, the other shoe has FINALLY dropped. H filed for D last Thursday, the 13th. Here's how I found out: I got a letter in the mail today from some local attorney (not mine and not his), who keeps an eye on court records, and sends these letters out to involved parties to try and get new business. I am going to write this attorney a letter detailing how despicable that practice is, and that these are REAL PEOPLE involved, some with broken hearts -- not just freakin' dollar signs. OMG - I was livid, not just with H for filing but (1) because he did not tell me and (2) I found out from some sleazy divorce attorney. Sick. The whole thing. And it is FAR too easy to get a D, at least in my state. I had already made an appointment with a certified divorce financial planner - next Tuesday. Good thing. I'll need her.
So here I am, almost 1.5 years after BD. Strangely, I am relieved. I have to say, I absolutely felt it was coming to a head, and very soon. Found out recently OW has filed (a couple of months ago it appears). And the way I've been feeling...like I just couldn't DO this anymore. Hanging by a thread. I'm really not even sure if I still really do love him anymore. You know why? Cause I don't know who he is anymore. At all. And he doesn't know who I am anymore. I am watching my recently divorced friends move on and start to date. Have felt like I want to move beyond all this too and start MY life.
Wait til I tell him how I found this out. Think he'll even feel bad? Probably not. Let's see how long it takes to get 'served.'
I did get a clean bill of health recently, thank God (just several routine annual checkups), so I'm ready to take this all on now. BRING IT, H. Let's DO this.
God grant me the serenity...etc., etc....
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15
