I can be the lighthouse but not the tugboat

[daring]

So I managed not to say anything about the yoga teacher until last night when H brought it up. S8 wanted to face time him and after talking to him handed the phone to me. We chatted for a few minutes about travel schedules and thenH asked if he could borrow D13 for a little while the next night. I said sure what do you have going on? He said he and D13 were going to start doing yoga. I said yeah I heard that your girlfriend I mean yoga teacher is going to come over. ( I know, shouldn't have, but he was being somewhat old H and so humor worked). He said " she's not a girlfriend" and laughed. I told him I don't see him being into yoga. He said " I'm not, but I have to do something to help my tight muscles and get more flexible". Then he added " Especially if I'm going to date a yoga teacher" and laughed. ( yes I know I deserved that one). I told him thanks for sharing that- he said he was joking. And seemed like he really was.
So I feel better about re whole issue. And today in IC I worked on some of the issues that led me to go nutso when I heard about the yoga teacher. Did some EMDR and have some homework to do.

Glad I have this place to vent. Keeps me from losing my cool with H.
I just wonder when my emotions won't feel like a dam^ hurricane that keeps changing course and intensity level!