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@Jefe: I'm participating so it's certainly not all him. LOL! I'm exaggerating my responses for his benefit, but it's hilarious. Sort of titillating, too, I won't lie. In a way I feel like I'm stringing him along, too. I don't give a crap about OW, she can rot.


@Mozza: Of course I replied to it. I asked him if he took that this morning, and he ignored the question, replying with another dirty response. I then played it off in my next reply like I realized it wasn't recent, and the reasons why, in an off-handed manner. He says, "I never said it was new, but isn't it sexy...." blah blah more sex talk.

I'm just laughing and rolling my eyes. It's part funny and part a testament to just how screwed up he is; who knows how long he's been doing things like this? Certainly gives me perspective I need to stop moping about loving him and seeing the truth to the ugly side. A side I don't want to partner with, unless things SERIOUSLY change.



Also, it helps to know that I see sex as something very normal and casual, which I know some people don't believe in. In a relationship and between people who are in love, it's sacred and an almost religious experience to me -- but for consenting adults who are free to do as they wish (IE: not attached to someone else), it's natural and not at all shocking or weird to behave like this. Naturally I value monogamy for myself, and I don't know for sure if he and OW are in an R. Since he and I aren't partnered anymore either, that puts us in the second category. It's the incidentals that make it sad/funny.