Gwen, Your h already knows that you love him, so there is no need to remind him of that. He's not going to forget you because you've been a part of his life. Trust me, he thinks about you and your family a lot, but can't let go of those stuffed feelings that are bubbling inside to think clearly.
As for the door being ajar, he'll figure it out. There is nothing you can say right now that he won't misinterpret as pursuing. The more you let him know that you love him and that he can return, the more he'll push back.
The best thing you can do is live your life to the fullest and, if and when, he does wake up, it will be on him to find you and attempt to win you back...but he's got a lot of work to do to regain your trust and be transparent in all things that he says and does...but that is far down the road at this point in time.
BTW, many of the MLCers tend to disappear from the lives of friends and family for quite a while. This is very normal and it is nothing to worry about. When he's having some clarity moments, they may hear from him. As for the holidays, some disappear for a while and resurface after the holidays and then there are others who show up and want to be part of the family because it brings back memories of yesteryear. No one knows what their MLCers will do until closer to the holidays.
Keep the focus on you and your family. The man upstairs is watching over your h for now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
