So I asked H if he wanted to talk. He said I have said all I needed to say. Which was in a text that said hes not the man for me and that I can take care of all the house stuff like the water pipes etc since I have to take care of everything. I'm guessing this came from me offering to pay for him missing work. I'm not sure. I went back and forth on offering because I didn't want to come off like I was being controlling or trying to make him feel inadequate I just wanted him to know I wanted him to come and if it was just about money then I didn't want him to miss out on coming over that and since I have the ability to make extra to cover it I dont mind at all. No scorecards here.
So I ended up coming to my room. I guess he's sleeping on the couch. I can't help but think we are doomed to fail. Am I perfect? Absolutely not. Do I still have work to do .. Of course. But how can someone be so strong for 2 months and turn to this. I'm just so upset and feel like I made a mistake but I don't even know what mistake I made.
I know it is his choice to go. It's just I feel like he made every vacation with Ow happen no problem and now when it comes to us it's an excuse a week before when this has been planned for more than a month.
I am grateful for my H being home because I love him, I love spending time with him; I love that I have someone to help me with the every day life stuff, I love that we can have fun no matter what we're doing (well almost everything)
