newbie needs help part 5

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An update on my sitch. There has been no movement or hearings scheduled on D proceedings. My wife said she wants to get through the holidays before talking to the kids.I have been keeping a positive attitude around w. We went to church last Sunday together as a family for the first time in months. We were ushers and my w seemed uncomfortable being there. She was sitting a few feet away from me in the pew.at the end of the service I whispered to her that it was all her fault me finding Jesus. She got a smile on her face. Actually was the best interaction we have had in quite a while. Anyway I have been depressed for the last few days. My D12 and twin boys came into my room and found a box of family photos in my wife's closet. The kids and I looked at them for an hour.since then I have been depressed. I see all the love and happiness in those photos. My w has been nice to me for the most part of the last week. I think she see I am a little withdrawn and upset about something. My gut tells me she will ask me if I'm ok. To be honest I have thought about telling her why,the photos all the memories and feelings I had when looking at them.I don't know if it will make any difference but I want to talk to her about why I am depressed. There is so many things I want to get off my mind.any feedback is appreciated