Welcome to the club that no one wants to be in, yet we're lucky to be here.
Usually Cadet gets on here and posts a welcome that includes some specific reading and homework for you to get started with your serious DBing.
(I don't want to take him for granted, so Thanks, Cadet, for all you do!)
While you're waiting you should read as much as you can of other people's sitches, which it sounds like you've already been doing.
You will be on moderation for awhile, so it may take some time for your posts to show up.
It sounds like you're already off to a pretty good start, and things have calmed down in your M because you got yourself under control.
Hang in there and keep us up-to-date on your progress.
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Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?