Why do I want to send a card? Honestly it is if he just morphed into an alien. I understand now that I didn't cause this because it is obvious in how he has left his entire life behind. He doesn't treat me any differently than anyone else he left behind. the only person he talks to is OW. He just walked out into the desert and I fear for him. I am scared he will think because I am LRT and dark that he can never come back into our lives. Not sending a card seems like I am telling him you are nobody. I don't want to send that message either.
My 180's include detachment. That is why I went dark. It is for my protection but H certainly asked for space so I am dark. Still I have to wonder if LRT is just something we tell ourselves so we don't have to admit there is no hope?
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
