Kids been up and down of late, seems the reality of the sitch is hitting home
D10. Very quiet and not as bubbly as normal
D13. Very anti W and vocal about it
D15. Very very anti W as it's his birthday next week and W not sure if she can make meal ( which is day before his actual B day)
D19 very quiet and down. Keeping an eye on him
This week so far W has told me that she misses me, I am a great dad , she thinks she is in the middle of a mental breakdown and that she is home sick. I am past trying to mind read if she is regretting her decision to leave or just guilty over leaving kids. She is also out of money.
On a positive note , I am now able to make roast dinners, beef or ham to perfection. I am enjoying the house work, washing etc as it gives me a sense of pride to be caring for the kids as I should have for years.
I am struggling with seeing W almost everyday but when I tried to arrange set days for visits she cried uncontrollably and said I was trying to keep her from her kids. I relented because I think it's best for kids to see her but it's difficult for me
I don't know if any one is reading these posts anymore as my fellow posters ( timeline wise) seemed to have dropped the rope and gone Still it helps me deal with it all. Take care
