H and I are being friendly. Just talking and watching TV no affection, intimacy or R talk. He sleeps on couch, I sleep on bed. Not sure if we're going to MC this week. It seems pointless if he doesn't want to work on marriage. I'm not giving up, but I am distancing and detaching. I can only handle so much pain and heartbreak. I'm going to focus on me. If he wants there to be an "us" again, he will have to initiate and pursue. I can't change him or force him and I felt pitiful trying anyway. Time for distractions and deep breathing. I can do this.
H: 43 W: 39 Married: 11 years Together: 18 years 1st BD: 05/2014 asks for separation 2nd BD: 06/16/2014 asks for divorce No kids EA: 2 months, not mutual (she didn't return the feelings) over
