An update on sitch. Sitch appears to be changing slowly. I came across some photos or Facebooks likes of W that I assume goes along with what she's thinking at the moment. For example, she Liked or found some photo that read something to the effect, "Marriage is two imperfect people who refuse to give up on each other." Another photo read to the effect, "Don't touch my man. Don't message my man. Don't call my man." I'm not over thinking these, but I'm surprised to see.
I also know she is okay with our case worker postponing the approval of her rental home. Moreover, last week she found out she could have been living in the house without it being approved yet. Knowing this she didn't rush to start living there and doesn't have a date in mind that I know of. She told me she was scared and sad to find this out. Lastly, with the case worker postponing, she mentioned to her IF our sitch gets to S or D.
Last week W mentioned she had told OM that they cant be friends and he should back off. She also told him she knows this will be hard on the girls (my daughter and his). She told me she didn't mean this wholeheartedly but did tell him. This came sometime after we had a talk about our sitch where I apologized how my failed R areas played a role in what has happened. I'm assuming they still talk and she still goes to his church. She did go this last Sun.
In regards to church, I had to go to the church to pick her and the kids up because she locked herself out of "my" car. I felt weird having to go do so and I also felt mad that I had to be in the presence of "their" church. So these feelings happened twice as I had to go pick her and kids up and then come back when she found her set of keys at home to unlock the car as I had gave her my key which was locked in the car. This was the case because I was taking "her" car to get looked at.
Another occurrence to add to this update is that she brought up the topic of ML. Out of nowhere while we're at the mall watching our kids play in the play area she asks, "Whats the longest we've ever gone without ML?" I answered as best my memory served me and then went on to say I kept track for a little while since this has been going on, but I no longer worry about it. And that ended the topic.
Lastly, I haven't been pursuing physically like I initially did. I've given an arm rub or shoulder rub to say bye when leaving for work in the morning, but that's all. I did try to kiss her this past week because we went out to lunch, but she wasn't trying to kiss me. She didn't say no, but she wasn't trying to meet me halfway either. The lunch was her idea and it has been months since we've been out to lunch.
