I'm sorry you are struggling with this. I can sense your pain and frustration and I'm sending you a hug. You should be very pleased with how very far YOU have come.
Hang in there:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer