Need help. Jefe's always confused. Pt 6

[Shakspr]

Jefe...I have been remiss in keeping up with you. HONESTY ALERT: Your situation is hard to read from the outside. You are obviously in a lot of pain, confused, and occasionally manic (probably due to lack of sleep.

I pray for you often. Speed reading through your sitch the last half-hour...I see hope in there. And not just from Hope 414 (who I wish I had in my corner at some point.)

Choose a single course of action and pursue it. Don't be distracted by extraneous what not. Create a mantra and stick with it. If your wife needs you to be a rock, be a rock. Hope414 is all over this one. DO WHAT WORKS!

If you want to pursue steady employment because YOU think it's the right thing to do - do it. Her words don't mean squat. I think she was ducking her own guilt when you suggested that you might make this move and she told you to hold off. Remember, actions speak more than any words. You want a marriage, now, and forever. Find a way.

Slow down. Work on some breathing exercises, at least. You don't sound like a meditation guy. So pray. And breathe. Get your blood pressure measured. I bet you'll be shocked into some positive change when you see the numbers!