We all have our ups and downs and you know I had a lot more downs than anything but I really think once you get past this stage you will feel better. For me I got to the point like you had mentioned recently where I just wanted a schedule and money figured out. I felt like I couldn't move forward because I was in limbo wondering what H was doing. I was ready to have some consistency.
I have no doubt in my mind that you will come out the other side happier and a better Person than you could have imagined.. With or without your H. You deserve to be happy and be with someone that will fight for your M too. If your H can't do that then he is doing you a favor in the long run.
Get out and do something.. Go out with your girlfriends. Have some laughs!
