How to start rebuilding? - 2

[Hoju]

Not much new to report, I signed a lease for an apartment I will be moving into come January next year. Which means I will be staying at my mothers over Christmas. It's hard to believe the house will be gone in a little over a week.

I'm still having very little contact with W, just a few logistical emails as she coordinates moving the last of her things. They are always plesent as she does't seem to have any hard feelings towards me. We will be meeting the house lawyer together on Wednesday, just need to focus on being the best and most attractive me I can, there is a good chance she will give me the finalized separation agreement when we meet which I need to be prepared for.

I don't understand how DBing is suppose to work when you have no contact. I've checked out her facebook and she seems to be having a great time. I feel in my absence she is just getting closer and closer to OM (quite sure they are "officially" together now) I know this is her journey and I can't control her, I do understand the concepts but never initiating contact or doing anything together other then D tasks just feels like I'm giving up and giving my consent that she is free and single. I often find myself dreaming that she came back or that life was normal again and none of this happend, then I wake up and face the harsh reality.