Newcomer Living in Hell 2

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took the kids last night to meet with the W for Santa pics and dinner. i think i'm starting to actually detach. only a couple of times did i look at her longingly (she didn't see). things were relaxed and pleasant. i did catch her watching me a couple of times and i just kinda gave her a small smile or a wink.

the thing that's bad is that my S is really getting pissed at her. he even said it's like her and i changed brains. he doesn't really like who she is now and he hates her friends(absolutely no prompting from me).he just keeps asking me why is momma making bad choices? he has noticed that she doesn't go to church, gets babysitters so she can "go out", and is pretty selfish (his words). i just told if he is that worried about mama, that we will say a prayer for her. he did ask about my ring and if i was gonna take it off if/when mama divorces me and i said yes. he got a little sad and he doesn't want me to give up on mama that she's "just lost right now". breaks my heart.