About your anger, I'm sure you do still have anger at your H but do you think you might have been letting a little anger out at your BFF. You didn't feel OK being angry at her so you jumped on the other person who abandoned you.
Interesting perspective, labug. I need to think about this further. Major projecting? Yes, it's possible. Almost like I was venting about being abandoned by my BFF directly to my BFF but through the guise of bitterness about my H. Sneaky sneaky.
If that's what I did, isn't that just a little sick? Am I THAT dysfunctional? Oy vey.
How much do I typically do that, I wonder.
Most of us do it, we just don't realize it. That's why getting in touch with our emotions, what am I feeling and why am I feeling it is so important. Otherwise, we do react to everything.
uR is giving you great direction and again, I see so many similarities in your story and mine.
You can change. Your life can be different and better. I think I've told you I was so far in a hole, with so many dysfunctional defense mechanisms I thought I would never crawl out.
But I did, I'm even thinking of putting my therapist on an as needed basis. Never thought I'd see the day.
I'm holding good thoughts for you.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
Never thought I'd see the day.