Gg, it sounds like we have very similar H, don't we?
GB, my new friend Dave Grohl is like, "Shining, you're my hero." And then he goes into the song "Hero" and then I cry, because he knows how much that song means to me, and then Dave stops playing for a minute to comfort me, and he's like, "Shining, I didn't mean to make you cry" and I'm like, "I know, it's ok. Just keep hugging". And so he does.
LiveNow, I appreciate your kind words. I hate thinking about all that has happened, because it's overwhelming all at once. But, yeah, I'm doing ok, considering it all.
uR, how is it you're so inside my head? Your posts move me. And you described exactly what I'm feeling.
Going to see H last week didn't serve me well. I know why I needed to.
Yes, I have felt really unsettled since xh talk. It is still processing. As the conversation was first sinking in, and the emotions came up, I felt confused and lost. Insecure. I reached out for something familiar....the one person I want to be able to reach out to....my H. Yet, he is not familiar anymore. That guy is gone. I mean, waaaayyyyy gone. And that hurts.
The seeing it coming? Yep. A part of me still blames me.
Forgiving myself??? *****sigh.*****
~~~~~~~~Cue the kicking and screaming.~~~~~~~~
I'm going to keep your quote in my pocket. In my phone. It's what I have to do, for sure.
