They mean so much to me - today I am struggling. My heart and head are in conflict and I feel like I am in a washing machine of turmoil - that's stuck on spin cycle!
This morning I received a call from my S18 college to say his scholarship application has been granted - I am so proud of him and happy he has found something he is passionate about but it means that he won't be coming with me now - I will be leaving my baby very soon.
I now feel like I have lost everything - my husband, best friend, marriage, role in life (was a housewife and full time mum for 21yrs), my home, my money and now my children are grown up and my role in their lives is changing. So many changes all in a few months. With me moving soon, it all gets a bit overwhelming sometimes.
Don't mind me, I will be ok - its just one of those days !!!!! Its just good to get it out instead of keeping it bottled up. I worry my friends here are thinking I am becoming a broken record, so I don't want to push to the limits of friendship. I do have many angels in my life, I have met so many wonderful people along my journey already, people who would never have come on my path if I had not been going through this. So thank you to you all.
