Do I walk away from WAW? (3)

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I know that I should have just held my head high and told her everything was fine and that I'd love to come and was already planning on it. I think where I struggle is where she asks me these questions that make me the one responsible for our new arrangement, as if I'm the one who has thrown the wrinkles in our plans. It hits me with a double edge of hurt and confusion, and it's really hard for me to absorb without showing emotion.

The root of it is that I don't know what I want, besides my W back. I haven't truly gotten to the place where I don't care what she does. I don't know how people get to that place.

I shouldn't want to be with a person who treats me this way. And yet I still cling to her.