Shining, I totally get the part about moving on quicker each time from our H's antics. Feel like I keep getting punched in the gut, but each time it hurts a little less, and I get right back up now; a year ago, it would take me days to regroup from every hurt I had to endure. When you say your are 'reluctant to put yourself out there', do you mean in the situation with your H? Or in other situations, general life situations? Do you feel stuck that you can't decide whether to move on, and file for D? Or stuck that you can't make more progress with H?
I've also said that my current sitch is about the worst thing i can think of to happen in my life -- same here, rejection and abandonment fears. But we grow stronger knowing we are handling it, however inept we feel at doing so sometimes...it did not kill us, like we thought it might! Honestly, you've gone through SO much, and survived. Doesn't sound like there is much you can't handle!
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15
